When Michael left me years ago I was pregnant with our third child, Jason. Because of his father’s rejection, he had a lot of fear and rejection to overcome in his life. Each of our children reacted differently to their woundings and each was healed in a very special way by Jesus. Jason’s journey was a very difficult one but the Lord brought him through miraculously to the powerful man of God he is today.
This morning Jason gave me an engraving for Christmas. This is what it says.
Dear Mom,
As I scan the horizon and observe the lives of others I am often reminded of how truly fortunate and blessed I am.
So many individuals live lives full of compromise, searching for something that will never make them whole. Despite the extraordinary circumstances that you have endured, I am grateful that you took the stand that you did in standing for Dad. Our family has been and forever will be changed as a result of this decision.
What rich lives we lead. I thank God for your faithfulness. Imagine where our family would be today had you decided to take the road that so many others have chosen to take.
– James 1:12
Merry Christmas! I love you, Mom. Jason
Ever wonder if it’s worth it? You bet it is! Merry Christmas! Love, Marilyn
Thanks so very much for the inspiration Marilyn. I face daily the enemy attacks and often feel like I should just do what everyone else seems to do…move on with my life. I mean, I am divorced now so what hope for reconciliation is there? People think of me as crazy if I say anything about having any hope of reconciling. So I am glad to know there is some support out there. Thank you for sharing your sons kind and heartfelt words. Merry Christmas!
This morning as I was talking to the the Lord about the disappointment of another (3rd) Christmas of being separated from my husband, I was reminded from Colossians 3:12-17 to clothe myself with tender hearted love, pity and mercy. God is so faithful to lead and guide us if only we would let Him. The Word of God broke the angst of separation and reminded me not to look on the outward appearance of my situation. He reminded me to wait and see what He would do and the potential of having the marriage that He intends is still very real. What your son wrote is what I felt this morning..that to wait for the Lord and stand for my husband is worth more than all the tears that I have shed for his leaving. You are right, standing is only what we promised we would do in our marriage vows. I spoke those vows first to my Heavenly Father as I was making a covenant with Him even before I spoke those promises to my husband and in front of all those witnesses. I can't break them to Him..so I stand and watch for Him to grant my husband a spirit of wisdom and revelation in the deep and intimate knowledge of Him. The joy of seeing my husband restored to the Lord will be greater that his restoration to me! First things first!!